i should set the disclaimer that, i LOVE the planning committee!!! through all this hard work, long ass meetings, logistical nightmares (i've been having exhausting dreams all week of photoshopping things and doing other work. it hurts.)... one huge saving grace has been that EVERYONE is an amazing part of our team. we don't have a leader. we really are a collective. and everyone is hellof on. their. shit.

BUT. it's a few days away, and i'm sooo over it. not really, i'm still hella excited, but i caaan't stand thinking about it anymore! i'm so tired of my brain being stuck in this logical/analytical planning mindset. i swear, just trying to think about making dinner, laura and i delegate out responsibilities, figure out requirements, and make a working task list. i'm sick of it. we need volunteers. we need hella MONEY. i think i'm having a break down, and am about to start crying at work.

i haven't been climbing in two weeks. i've been sleeping at 4 and 5am like i'm in college pulling all-nighters or something. i want a vacation.

tomorrow/wednesday is laura and my two-year thing. and, i've got nothing but some loose plans that are rapidly falling apart. o.o

but, she moved in with me in davis a minute ago, and i looove it. i was worried it'd be difficult, stressful, and no doubt it has. but i love it, and i love her. it's good. =]

rawr. i guess i just needed to get that out. THANKS for listening. and yeah, i'm still pretty in love with qpocc and excited to see the 400-500 queer ppl taking over campus this weekend! i'm even more excited that we get those huge professional walkie talkies to use...

that's all.

if you're in davis, eat at ali baba's before sunday and mention QPOCC!! we get 30%

Current Location:	the dungeon
Current Mood:	crushed
Current Music:	nujabes

• lotsa vortexing & movie watching


• roadtripping to LA w/ josen & lauraface, chasing cars with too many tv screens in em. also, i'm amazed at socal carpool lanes. they seem ridiculous!


• ...for TRUCK STOP at HERE! oh i had such expectations and they were not met. i'll stick to sf clubs i guess. still fun though! and laura was extra drunkface, as demonstrated below

  
  some wonderful drunken fools and beautiful queer womyn! check out laura tryna be gangsta

  
  ah why not? =)

  
  and who doesn't love seeing narinda dancing!



• hit up a lil breakfast the next day at the nickel diner in order to refuel...

  
  look at these hooligans loitering about!

• ...refuel for the CRAZY anti-prop 8 protest!!! ohhh so amazing, being in a mass of people all chanting and solidaritizing and hoping for the same thing. (minus a few negative nellies...)

  
  check out them fancy last-minute rite-aid posters! yeah they're fierce

  
  cannot tell you how amazing it feels marching for queer rights under your own flag & with your people

• tired, kinda lost slash iphone almost dead and the map not working great, hella hungry, but so so proud, we happened across audrey kawasaki's latest installation at thinkspace!! oh so amazing...

  
  cannot tell you how amazing it feels marching for queer rights under your own flag & with your people



• also, laura took us to the greatest taco shop after where i had chimichangas that were so much better than those frozen $1 crap chimichangas i eat or any restaurant chimichanga i've ever had that i wish to someday return and bask in the glorious chimichanga heaven that it is. the tacos laura got were also really really good. and they had a carousel. O.o


• laura took me to a buddhist mass (not sure if they call it mass?). it was pretty damn interesting except for the hour where the lady chaplain talked about her deceased pet ferret (although it was heart-wrenching)


• met up with a cousin! had some interesting talks... it's nice not bein the only black sheep of the family...


• made crab for dinner for laura's mom! she liked it! (yeeeaah brownie points!) i think. i made salad too though, yay veggies?

  
  i usually only make dungeness but this was all they had (rock crab). well, this or devil scary ass monster SPIDER crab



• we hit up a casino buffet monday night, an hour out of town. long drive, but it was FREE! $27 per person but FREE for signing up for something!! yeessss, free crab legs, lobster, ice cream goodness. not the best quality but hey i love me some buffet. we also gambled, all night, resulting in acceptable losses but such near wins!


• on the way home, laura took me to the top of mount helix where she lives and despite the cold and fear of zombies & ghosts, i got some gems w/ my crappy camera

  
  lurve her



• our last day together was comprised of: shooting a bb gun at a ferocious oatmeal can; driving along coronado bridge as the sun set; running around on cold wet beach sand; eating semi not so delicious sushi; amazing chocolate croissant bread pudding from extraordinary desserts; and a make out session in the airport parking lot like foolish teenagers til it was too close to risk missing my flight <3

  

i miss her already :)

anywho, this is the piece by audrey kawasaki (i_seldom_do!) that's on my mind, and it comes on sale this sunday.

http://www.audrey-kawasaki.com/sale/index.php?p=16

all thoughts appreciated. would you, if it were a piece you really liked?

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10/4 - great america haunt!

w/ the beplerese; being chased by zombies; using laura-in-a-wheelchair as a weapon vs a skeleton man; abandoning laura & her wheelchair in a foggy tunnel b/c of zombies; cherng wheelchairing around a scary witch/zombie lady to the confusion of other great america goers

10/10 - rmi grand opening

a surprisingly fun work event! got to pour wine & beer, sample some good centennial beer and mondavi moscato d'oro; briefly saw martin yan (yan can cook!)

10/14 - rock climbing

once or twice a week, every week, for the majority of the past few months makes this something i actually feel i've improved at =]

10/14 - mangos w/ chili

awesome pride week event!! very hot, loved the comparison of a fucked up mango to a multi-racial relationship

10/15 - club 21 w/ jaymes

first time out in a long while with the lovely jaymes! ran into some LDL folks for good times & dancin

10/17 - night of awesomeness

in twelve hours we made it to an office bbq, davis is burning in full drag outfits, the saddle rack for laura's brother's bday, st joseph's (my grade school) to take drunken pictures, and a crackin donut shop at 3am.

one scary thing, we stopped at the donut shop cos i had to pee, and a bunch of white guys were standing around a car in the parking lot. i walked into the laundromat next door by myself looking for a restroom, and one of the guys hella followed me in and started walkin after me.. i hightailed it back to laura & kira before anything happened though..

notable moments?

• learning about the 'laura pose';
• real facial hair & a jaymes-crafted crotch bulge;
• watching hottt drag kings;
• getting cat calls at the saddle rack;
• having a guy at the saddle rack eye my facial hair, and then check out my ass as i walked by;
• smirnoff w/ ms kira luna;
• darren yamaguchi's amazing dance moves;
• "ain't joseph's!" prom picture;
• laura getting hit on on the freeway;
• someone yelling "have a good night, hairy lady!" at me;

10/18 - living word festival w/ mos def

laura picked this event out in oakland and it was hella fun! mos def performed, but we only caught the tail end from our car (ms fat booty!); lots of amazing graffiti art, plus a skate park where hella kids managed to do awesome tricks and not kill each other and crash at the same time

10/18 - the wedge: where everybody is somebody

a club in daly city that plays damn good music (including tagalog remixes of umbrella & soldier boy!!!), serves delicious filipino food til 2am, and includes ppl of all (21+) ages!! lorie & pia described it like a wedding reception or cotillion, and that it was. (on top of all that, there seemed to be a bunch of other queer womyn, not just the ones we came with!)

whew!

Current Mood:	happy
Current Music:	laura sleepyfacing

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Current Location:	38 mrak
Current Mood:	sleepy
Current Music:	that's that shit - snoop dogg

hey folks,
we're gearing up for a fourth blog-a-thon and this month's topic is sex. i know we've all got something to say, one way or another, so holler @ me if you want to contribute. the week-long blog-a-thon is set for wednesday, may 28th to wednesday, june 4th. spread the word. you don't need to already have a personal blog to contribute. if you're interested, i can send you more info.

here's a little information on a previous blog-a-thon:
http://blogs.newamericamedia.org/yo/1067/join-the-second-youth-media-blog-a-thon-violence

peace, j

Current Location:	davis
Current Mood:	sleepy
Current Music:	phone static

for no apparent reason, i've spent the last ten (+/-) hours researching certain laws, reading miscellaneous and irrelevant articles, trying to figure out everywhere i went (read: ate) in my week.5 at bepler and put it into a map, which led me to rambling on reviews for said places, and finally working on a couple shirt designs for our department at work.

i'm feeling delirious but still very much awake. laura's been a silent presence on the phone in my right ear. my wrists are very much pre-carpal-tunnel at the moment.

okay okay, i'll stop my rant.

wait, one more. my parents stopped by today cos i had to sign some papers. in attempts to make peace, i got my dad a shirt that looks like a barong with hidden weapons on the inside, and my mom a thing of avocado ice cream from mitchell's. she, in particular, looked really surprised at that, although she still said less than ten words to me (the majority being "oy, your ulam is in there"). on leaving, my dad asked if "that laura" would be coming to easter with us. he mentioned that my mom definitely didn't want her there, but i should ask her anyway if i wanted. amazing! it's weird and awkward progress, but i guess it's progress nonetheless...

whoa, some cats are hella howling right now! i think it's gnocchi but i can't tell. he is becoming more and more doglike though, stella & molly taught him to sit already. maybe it's a full moon?

k, sleep attempt #9.